Unbreakable

I hate those days where you just cannot find anything good to say about anything including yourself. For the most part I try to be an upbeat person. I suppose it must be hormones that make me feel bad about myself. A lot of it is probably feelings from my past leaking over the huge dam I built around them. Hard to say.
I spent the morning making experimental items on my sewing machine. Of course scarce a single thing turned out well. Most of it ended up in my scrap basket. Normally I would look on this as a learning experience. Of course, not today. Today I am a dismal failure destined to lead this mediocre life surrounded by my wretched creations. Sheesh if you put it that way I may as well end it all now. Of course I know I will totally be over all this tomorrow.
I'm also having one of those days where the mirror is my worst enemy. I find fault in the things that I often find charming about myself. The small chip in my front tooth from snow boarding. The little tweak my nose takes to the left. My 6'1" stature from my ridiculously long legs suddenly is akin to the makings of a freak show.
Good lord I could not imagine feeling like this all the time.
I remind myself we all have these kinds of days. I'm strong and intelligent enough to know my life is wonderful and my looks are charmingly original.
I often remind myself of my mantra. I call it "unbreakable". I'm not sure I remember where I got it from but it plays constantly in the back of my mind. When I am challenged, when I feel bad, when I am sad or beaten down by people or life I remind myself that I am truly unbreakable. I don't say this lightly either. Most people don't know me well enough to know what I have been through in my life. Let's just say the first many decades were a challenge to make it through. I've had many hardships and my life was close more times than I care to think about to ending.
But through the grace of God and wonderful people in my life I turned it all around and became the person that I am today. I am stronger than I ever imagined I could be.
Therefor I say "unbreakable".
I thought about having it tattooed somewhere on my body so I could see it in times of need but I'm not really one for that sort of thing. It's something that I find when I need it. I don't need to be reminded.
So today even though this is a small road block I can remind myself that I am unbreakable and I move on through this. This is very small compared to all I have seen and will see in this amazing story that I call my life.