Hmmmmmm

Well today I don't really feel much better. Good thing I work or I would never get out of bed this time of year.
I have really been excited about the holidays this year. But as it gets closer I'm starting to come unraveled. Family issues and emotional issues always seem to come to a head around this time.
I always think I'm alone in this but the more people I talk to I realize I'm not so different. My only issue is becoming paralyzed by the emotions that run through me and doing nothing. It's becoming a little more apparent as we speak.
Today I did get out of bed. I wrapped all the presents and arranged them under the tree. I made biscuits and sausage gravy for breakfast, marinated pork for dinner. Did laundry and gave the dogs a bath. I also laid on the couch watching a movie, drawing in my sketchbook and drinking beer. All and all it was a good day.
I talked to my husband about these anxieties. That helps. He understands me way more than I give him credit for sometimes.
Life is good. Just need to remember that.